Generation Gap

Every time I meet my granny (mom’s mom) she always has one thing to complain about for sure my clothes! Personally I find nothing wrong with my clothes, but then she has these small issues with my clothes why do I wear skinny jeans? How do I manage such tight jeans? Why do I wear short skirts and frocks? And I end up showing her the weirdest clothes (trust me they are not weird) I have and I enjoy the expression on her face. Then she shoots a question at mom “how do you allow her to wear such clothes and go out?” I still remember her expression when she saw the top I wore for my fresher’s seriously there was nothing wrong with it but she found it weird. Well is this what we call generation gap? Or is it just that we live in an era which is quite alien to her. In her times definitely girls were just into the traditional Indian wear saris. She is not used to seeing girls getting dressed up in the way they do now. I don’t take her comments seriously but I enjoy them and whenever I get a chance I love to flaunt and tease her. But I could have concluded that that she is conservative narrow minded and blah blah..but no she is just not used to it. My mom did not grow up wearing the type of clothes that I wear and then suddenly when my granny sees her granddaughter in skinny jeans and tees or maybe shorts she is not comfortable with this change. She finds it strange when mom allows me to wear short dresses and go to a friend’s party. The change that my granny could not accept my mom could. She gave me the freedom to wear the type of clothes I want but then subjected to many restrictions I must say. These restrictions were imposed on me just to protect me I know but I could not accept that easily. A Capri and a funky message t shirt is what I find to be cool and just the perfect thing for me!!A kurta and jeans is what my mom finds to be descent and just the perfect fit for me!! Whenever we go shopping most of the time we end up getting nothing for me and whenever we do buy it is after a strenuous search for almost 2 or 3 hours trying to find a combination of cool+descent outfit :O and finally when we lose patience one of us compromises.

Few days back I was having a chat with a friend regarding these new changes and the generation gap. It started when she said that her younger brothers are into dating right from standard 8th and are always into late night talks. The first thing I asked her was they are in standard 8th and already have a personal cell phone? I remember in are times both of us were given personal cell phones when we left school. We were 16 then. And now kids get cell phones in class 8th. She was completely against this idea of a standard 8th kid using a cell phone and indulging into late night talks. But then can we blame the kids??Is it their fault?ofcourse not!! We have been through the same stage the only difference is that the mistakes which we committed when we were 16 they are committing it when they are just 13. And at such a point of time you can’t even stop them. They will make mistakes and learn from them. That is the beauty of teenage. She told me that even standard 7 8 students go pubbing and have perhaps tasted every damn drink. At this point I was not sure whether I should be shocked or sad about the fact that I am 21 and have no real idea about pubbing. I have never been to a ‘real pub.’ Well it’s true that I and my friend were sitting at a pub only discussing all this but then it was in the afternoon there was no dj! forget the dj we did not even have music not a single person out there and we were just munching potato wedges and chit chatting. If this is what you call a real pub and pubbing then yes I have been to a pub. My friend was not able to accept all this. She was not against it but she kept saying one thing ‘there is an age for everything; this is just not the right time.’ This sentence just reminded me of my parents they used to say this to me every other day a few years back. I could not help smiling. I was not allowed to have a facebook account till I turned 16 but now even a 9 year old has a facebook account. At that point of time even I could never understand why my parents restricted me from all this but now I can clearly see the reason. All of a sudden she told me ‘Anks I am really scared!!Things that I did after I turned 18 my younger brothers are repeating the same when they are just 13! I wonder 20 years from now what will be my children doing? They will be having a personal cell phone right from standard 3, they will start dating from kindergarten itself. My daughter might end up wearing a bikini and walk casually to college?:O Shit!! What will I do? I mean off course I won’t let all this happen. I won’t be giving a cell phone to my kids till they are done with their high school. I won’t let my daughter wear any such crap but then things are changing so fast..Who knows what will happen...” I just stared at her with a blank expression. Pretty obvious whatever she was saying did not make any sense to me. I have never ever thought about my kids sorry I meant would be kids :P she just now told me the unpredictable future of her would be kids.

Back home I wondered if whatever she said was actually going to happen. But who cares what will happen 20 years from now. She said we would not let our kids use a cell phone till they are done with their high school. But will that be possible 20 years from now? What if all the moms in this world don’t think in similar ways? How will I be able to stop my 8 year old kid to have a cell phone when all his/her classmates have one? How would he or she feel at that time? What would they think of their parents? Will they be able to understand why we avoid or restrict them from doing things that might seem pretty cool to them but not to us? It would just end up like he or she becomes an arrogant little shit and I become a terrible old fashioned conservative mom. A friend once told me “I can’t understand why the elders always criticise our generation? What exactly is wrong with us? And before criticizing they should once think that they are actually criticizing their upbringing.” So does that mean the way we shape them that is exactly how they become? But practically is that possible? I don’t believe it. I remember I read this somewhere written by George Orwell “Each generation imagines itself to be more intelligent than the one that went before it, and wiser than the one that comes after it.” No matter how much we try to make them the person we want them to be, at the end they become themselves. Maybe they will benefit more from the lessons that they learn from their mistakes and blunders. We should just let them fly after being sure that they have learnt the proper way to use their wings. But how badly I wish our parents thought the same :P

Seriously at times I wonder why I am so different from everybody. Why is it that my thinking process my way of seeing things are so damn different from my parents? If I am trying to put myself in their shoes and understand their point of view why can’t they do the same? I am not saying they are wrong but rather than terming me as the one who is immature and stupid can’t they for a few minutes see life from my eyes? Maybe the term called generation gap can be bridged if we and the generation before and after us try to see and understand things by walking in each other’s shoes. A thing that might have seemed absurd in one generation might become wisdom in another. I don’t know if the changes that we are about to notice in the next generation are for the better or worse whatever they are we are supposed to accept it and move on.

It ends...

This was supposed to be posted on 23rd April, but the moment I logged in my cell phone beeped “sir calling”....The four minutes conversation was enough to make me realise that there was just a week to my exams but I did make it a point that this post is going to be a part of my blog as they say that this is supposed to be a big day in everybody’s life so I should definitely be sharing this..
Five years of college life ends today. As I walked out of the exam hall it was a weird feeling realising the fact that it was the last day I sat in this classroom. Walking through the corridors I experienced a blend of emotions...5years are over..Really??Off course when I had joined this college I was 16 now 21.I spent 5 years of my life in this college and never realised it. Just then I happened to come to the science block I could clearly get the flashbacks the wonderful slideshows of standard 11th I badly missed them .The sprity canteen, the world’s craziest bunch of people as friends, the one year of living life to the fullest. I did not realise that I had actually stopped walking I was standing there watching something invisible. And then these three years of I don’t know what is happening type of feeling...The moment I stepped out of the college building I could not help looking back at the commerce block. I could clearly remember the day I had shifted to this block, switched to commerce, the day I made a new friend who in these three years has become one of my best friends. Three years have passed and it seems like yesterday when I was struggling at home to let me opt for commerce. Three years have passed in just one wink of an eye. Unbelievable!!I could hear people rejoicing the last day of college. My eyes had become heavy. I turned back once again just smiled and told myself “this is life.”
Back home I just had a small conversation with my parents about the last day in college. Dad told me it’s a different feeling an important phase of your life ends, college life ends..but then you people won’t feel or understand this as you literally never had any college life, friends, activities or any attachment towards college. How true!!I never realised when this important phase of my life started and ended...I could not even get that proud happy feeling of being an unofficial graduate. I had fresher’s party farewell party everything but never had a college life in these three years. I kept thinking has anything changed within me??around me??My life??yes so much has changed or maybe everything has changed and I could not even realise when. Should I be feeling happy that my college life is over??Or should i be feeling sad??I don’t know ..I just know that it is over ..

RaNdOm CrAzY

To be frank I have nothing much to write now. Its 2.50am in the morning but I am not at all sleepy. True, I have spent many sleepless nights before but today it is totally different I am just on a path to self discovery and self realisation. I am writing it just to remind you that I am alive. It has been ages I have not been writing though I have been trying since months but never found anything worth posting here. The ones I found sharing here I could not maybe because I was too lazy to type :P and at times just lost what I wrote and where I wrote. My usual habit of scribbling down things on the last page of any notebook I get and later on forget where I wrote. And then finding it after ages and don’t feel like posting it. At times I felt is it good enough to tell everyone what I am feeling how things are in my life??That was another reason why I had stopped blogging but then I can’t deny the fact that I tried like hell to get something to share with you I had so many things in my mind( even Google would not get them) but failed to express when I tried to put them into words. I just became clueless. There was something I wrote which I badly wanted to post here it was dedicated to a few people in my life but my laziness did not let me do that. Apart from that its true i did not get much time to write before but since December I have literally been doing nothing but still could not write anything. Reason??Even I don’t know!!! So here I am writing something just to say I am alive ear phones plugged on listening to ganesh hegde’s jaa rahe ho agar after ages...anyways why on earth am I giving so many excuses for not writing??Was anybody really checking out my blog updates??Was anybody actually wondering what happened to me why I stopped writing??Are people really interested in my life well I have an answer to this question some people are always interested in other peoples life :D I have started loving those people it is good to know people are more jobless than me. gawd!!What am I really writing??Nothing actually I am not sleepy and i just wanted to write something so I am doing that. Soo many irrelevant things ok back to some relevant things in my life..Well my friends say I am having some vampire traits in me, true i have started seeing n feeling vampires around me, I behave like one, I am in love with a vampire as well called Edward Cullen. He makes me smile he makes me dream he makes me wish for a guy who would love me that way..Apart from that life has been good as well as bad..My mom says am not a perfect girl even i agree with her. I am a human being how can I be perfect? True I lack a true good qualities of a so called good girl woman or whatever I am careless I am crazy lazy weird and more over half vampire i can only use a microwave to cook food sorry not food but Maggie but Maggie is food only naa??I cannot keep my room clean my clothes are always messed up so is my study table but I swear I prefer staying away from all girlish things apart from shopping: D now that is a proof that yes there lies a real girl in every imperfect girl :P but I swear I am not drunk now don’t know what made me write all this..but before I get confused mad sad whatever..I need a good night sleep :D hope you had a crazy time reading this..:P and yeah am alive :D