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At times in life we face such situations whose consequences we are not aware of.Still we are bound to take some decisions no matter where they lead us.Its not that easy to decide something on which your whole future depends.These situations leave you completely befuddled.You know you can decide something take a step which you want to,but then there is a question ‘are you that matured to take such a step?’ specially when the world around you is just compelling you to take just the opposite step.You discuss this with your friends(the ones whom you listen to,the ones who have the ability to help you get out of this) but its also of no use.At the end of the day you are again more confused and your friends can only say ‘never seen a more confused person than you.’ And if you happen to take your own decision like I did you really have to face a hell lot of hurdles.I had decided to pursue commerce after completion of my 12th boards. I was expected to go for engineering just like all my friends and every other person out here.I did appear for engineering entrances (being a science student I was forced to do so) without any preparation so I just could not get through damn good colleges as expected by everyone who knew me in school.Though I knew I wont get through any good colleges.Things like this also happened to me in my entrance exams I wrote the wrong roll number got my paper rejected,trust me I did not do that intentionally,it just happened. Neways I was still forced by my family and of course relatives(trust me at times I hate this word called relatives,they really mess up a lot)to study engineering.I could get through some good colleges but I was least interested in engineering.Somehow after lots of melodramas I was able to convince my parents to let me study commerce.But then in this place I mean where I live they have this misconception that commerce is opted by those who lag behind in studies, who never study,who can never build a descent prestigious career with a good pay package.CRAP!!!If you are a good student then you are expected to study medical or engineering.As if doctors and engineers rule this world..and rest every person who is not an engineer or doctor has no brains,is pea headed,not a good student and if he is studying commerce then he is for sure a spoilt brat.And commerce is just a piece of cake any tom dick harry can score a handful of marks in it.Its a complete pigshit!!I really felt like showing them DU cut offs(DU-my childhood dream:( ) but I could not because I could not get through DU.Well I did not even apply for DU the cut off being as high as 97%:( how do you expect I could??If commerce is this bad and has no future then why is DU cut off so high??Really these people out here need to grow up. Throughout school we are judged by the marks we score,you score good marks you are good you don’t you are bad.And then finally when it is time for college you are given just two options medical or engineering.This is the trend that people out here normally follow. As if there is no other field left,no scope in any other profession,and a large scarcity of engineers n doctors. So once you have completed 12th close your eyes and place yourself in any engineering or medical college(if you are lucky then in a college of your choice else wherever your parents say).We are not even given an option to think about our future what we actually want to do,what we actually want to study.Everything is just predetermined you are either born to be a doctor else an engineer. Why can’t the child himself be given this option of deciding his own future?? Then there are a few cases I have seen who ask others “hey I will be doing engineering please suggest me some branch which does not have maths or physics” Then why in the first place you want to study such a thing? “its just mom n dad told me to do I have never thought much about it.” This is what happens in maximum cases with people out here. Yea it happens only in this city or maybe this state. I remember those conversations at family gatherings or any damn place where you have to meet your relatives. Each one of them made me feel as if I am committing some big blunder. And then I happened to meet a few nerds of my college somewhere, I remember the look they gave me when I told them I am doing bcom and simultaneously pursuing CA. Bcom??:-O ohh okay..CA??what is that some computer application course???With a look of contempt they would ask me such questions. As if I had come over from Mars and telling them some alien bedtime story.And yea when I told someone that am appearing for CPT(CA’s foundation exams)this was the response “you are worried about your compartmental exams?Dont worry you can manage it.You are not that bad” (around 4 or 5 told me this,atleast they would have bothered to ask what is CPT rather than responding in this way):-O And then I must tell you about this reaction I got from a school friend when he came to know that I am studying commerce “Gal you spoilt your career you were such a good student,how could you take such a step?”
Despite all this I was stubborn about my decision. I believe there is ample scope in every field but it is possible only by the person who seeks them. You actually need a lot of courage and determination to go against the current. I chose a complete different life by taking up commerce.